Oh I want to learn to ballroom dance! I have thought this off and on, and as I watch the current Hallmark movie yes I'd like to dance with someone. Tango maybe, umm no that isn't on the show, just a thought that fluttered through my mind.
Back to the holiday, I have been pestering Bug for weeks to make his Christmas list, he still hasn't completed it, but I sat down this afternoon and made a list. I have edited it a bit so that I don't embarrass myself too much, because this is my list of dreams. I included things I've got no hope of getting, because I realize that just because I know I can't have them doesn't mean I can't ask for them, season of miracles? ~laughing~ Expectations, to not get, I believe that fits under the expect the worst, not the expect the best which I am working so hard to cultivate. None the less, without further ado, my 2012 wish list:
Lush Bath products-gift card might be best, but if purchasing, here are some suggestions: NEW! solid shampoo, Silky underwear dusting powder, Waylander Rhassoul soap
Camera-Nikon, Sony, DSLR, HD movie shooting
Passport-paid for
New MacBook Pro
Rothco Venturer Travel Portfolio Bag--$12 Amazon
Rothco Venturer Survivor Shoulder Bag--$16.80 Amazon
iPad
subscription to Hobby Farm Home
Charm bracelet with meaningful charms
home of our own, where we can make noise and keep a tree up for as long as we want, a place to paint and dream and dance and love in
a man to love who loves me, who encourages me and appreciates me, one who is attracted to me and expresses it, and is happy when I express such feelings, a man who can treat me like a princess and a whore, someone to bake for, to worship and grow with
a waffle maker, the kind that spins
kitchen aid mixer with attachments
gift card ideas-Hobby lobby, Michaels, AMC theaters, Trader Joes,
Something someone bought me because it was beautiful and thought it would be perfect for me, jewelry wise
happiness
great hair
Yoga dvd-Yoga for Beginners (2006) 8.99 at Amazon
Yoga Mat, belt, blocks
travel mug-Oh the places you’ll go 7.62 Amazon
FIN water bottle
Eileen West Fairy Tale Flannel Nightgown-Vermont Country Store
someones to send holiday goodies to
Books, well loved books suggested from people I respect and adore, surprise me with something that will curl my toes.
and don't even get me started on Stocking stuffers, I can think of billions of great things for stockings, life would be wonderful if I was put in charge of all the stockings. I should propose such a thing, cause I could easily spend what I would spend on a gift on a stocking. It was such a shock when I got married, to realize that not everyone does stockings. My husband's family never did them, which is funny since my mother in law collected stockings. Needless to say Christmas changed for me in the midwest. All the joy and happiness I used to feel faded, I bought all the gifts, for everyone, my husband only even attempted Christmas gifts the first year of our marriage. After that he just lost the heart for it I guess. Perhaps holiday spirit goes hand in hand with everything else I ruined in him Yeah, I don't credit for all that anymore. It took two to fall in love and it took two to fall out of love.
But like I was saying, stocking stuffers, to me that was always the best part of Christmas, getting up long before dawn to open my stocking. I loved it! Even when I grew up and my mom couldn't figure out what to put into my stocking, I still loved it, would still get up before dawn to peek at what she'd put in it. Stockings hold the true magic of Christmas, the unexpected most thoughtful items can be found in a stocking. At least that is my belief.
On another note, Bug and I went to the movies this morning, we went to see Rise of the Guardians, it was awesome! I get so much more out of movies and books and well a lot of things, since June. In this case I learned that the core of Christmas is wonder, the core of Easter is hope, the core of Jack Frost is fun, the core of the Sandman is dreams, and the core of the Tooth fairy is memories. It is a beautiful message. I believe I shall have to read the books, and as soon as I saw they were by William Joyce I knew I would love them, for I adore most everything about his work! So I am hoping to get the Guardians of Childhood series. Maybe I should have added it to my Christmas list? I can think of a million books I'd like to get, ones I can't find in Kindle version for myself, mostly because kid lit is not as available?
How perfect is it that the Sandman, the one who knows all of your dreams, doesn't speak? Isn't that as it should be? Oh and Jude Law as Pitch Black? Perfections, his voice just makes you want to comply. Well it makes me want to comply in all sorts of ways. He always does that to me, not his physical self, just his voice, he's too perfect at the whole cultured cruel. Welcome to my mental state. Don't judge.
I have to try to convince Bug to get a small table top tree this year. I dread this, because it was one of the last things we held onto. Going out to hunt our tree is something we have done every year, except the year my ex had knee surgery. My mom's husband is very particular about holidays and everything in between. One year, two days after Christmas, Bug and I went out and when we came back the tree was taken down, completely, and the couple presents that we'd left under the tree were sitting in the middle of the floor, screaming out that this was our fault, if we had put the presents away the tree would have stayed longer. I think that was our second year here. Last year we brought a tree home but we never decorated it, didn't see the point, knowing it would just be yanked away from us before we were ready. So now I think the best approach will be just to get something that is as unobtrusive as possible. It saddens me, wondering what tradition I will let slip away next? How do I maintain that which I thought was so important while accommodating others?
Books, well loved books suggested from people I respect and adore, surprise me with something that will curl my toes.
and don't even get me started on Stocking stuffers, I can think of billions of great things for stockings, life would be wonderful if I was put in charge of all the stockings. I should propose such a thing, cause I could easily spend what I would spend on a gift on a stocking. It was such a shock when I got married, to realize that not everyone does stockings. My husband's family never did them, which is funny since my mother in law collected stockings. Needless to say Christmas changed for me in the midwest. All the joy and happiness I used to feel faded, I bought all the gifts, for everyone, my husband only even attempted Christmas gifts the first year of our marriage. After that he just lost the heart for it I guess.
But like I was saying, stocking stuffers, to me that was always the best part of Christmas, getting up long before dawn to open my stocking. I loved it! Even when I grew up and my mom couldn't figure out what to put into my stocking, I still loved it, would still get up before dawn to peek at what she'd put in it. Stockings hold the true magic of Christmas, the unexpected most thoughtful items can be found in a stocking. At least that is my belief.
On another note, Bug and I went to the movies this morning, we went to see Rise of the Guardians, it was awesome! I get so much more out of movies and books and well a lot of things, since June. In this case I learned that the core of Christmas is wonder, the core of Easter is hope, the core of Jack Frost is fun, the core of the Sandman is dreams, and the core of the Tooth fairy is memories. It is a beautiful message. I believe I shall have to read the books, and as soon as I saw they were by William Joyce I knew I would love them, for I adore most everything about his work! So I am hoping to get the Guardians of Childhood series. Maybe I should have added it to my Christmas list? I can think of a million books I'd like to get, ones I can't find in Kindle version for myself, mostly because kid lit is not as available?
How perfect is it that the Sandman, the one who knows all of your dreams, doesn't speak? Isn't that as it should be? Oh and Jude Law as Pitch Black? Perfections, his voice just makes you want to comply. Well it makes me want to comply in all sorts of ways. He always does that to me, not his physical self, just his voice, he's too perfect at the whole cultured cruel. Welcome to my mental state. Don't judge.
I have to try to convince Bug to get a small table top tree this year. I dread this, because it was one of the last things we held onto. Going out to hunt our tree is something we have done every year, except the year my ex had knee surgery. My mom's husband is very particular about holidays and everything in between. One year, two days after Christmas, Bug and I went out and when we came back the tree was taken down, completely, and the couple presents that we'd left under the tree were sitting in the middle of the floor, screaming out that this was our fault, if we had put the presents away the tree would have stayed longer. I think that was our second year here. Last year we brought a tree home but we never decorated it, didn't see the point, knowing it would just be yanked away from us before we were ready. So now I think the best approach will be just to get something that is as unobtrusive as possible. It saddens me, wondering what tradition I will let slip away next? How do I maintain that which I thought was so important while accommodating others?
What is wrong with a having a tree for as long has you have, decorated the way you wish? To have something that makes you smile even knowing you will lose it, is much better than giving up on it. Enjoy things for what they are and for as long as you have it...then remember, memories bring smiles, regrets bring tears.
ReplyDeleteBeautifully written, your list moistened my eyes, and your insights made me grin and feel warm.